I just finished typing a whole page and its gone! SHIT

Btw, i was talking about my freaking loose screen and stuff. I realised i keep typing random stuff lately, but now i am not going to type random things! I'm going to be very serious!

Oh please remember that JUNE 18 is a very very important date!! Its my 17th birthday.

Sidetrack abit, i have to stay till 6,7 today to research on a computer project about hongkong. Hmms, i don't know the purpose of my project but its ok. I wanted to wake up at 6 today but my alarm failed me yet again. Its either that or i was so dead to the world that i couldn't hear it. I wore something damn ugly to school today. But NVM!

My uncle's wedding is this sat. I still don't know what i'm going to wear to the wedding. There are two parts! Should i wear a dress or just casual. What if they wear very formal and i wear jeans?

My mother suddenly said she's going to get contact lens for me. The disposable ones. YAY! But i fear it is just her moodswing. Cross my fingers!
GREY"S ANATOMY!

I realised that i've cut you all a lot of slack but GA is back!YAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!

MCDREAMY!!!!!!

Although he's old but he's still ..... MCDREAMY!!!! i'm like too enthusiastic now. I've rewatched season 4 ep 13 for like the 3rd time. But he's still flawless! HAHAHAHA!!!

Shit, this is a crap post
I really love weekends though i only slept till 9.11 today because my mother was screaming continously that we should go and get breakfast. LOL. The first time she shouted, i turned and looked at the alarm clock and guess what? Its only 7.42. I think my mother is a little bit crazy. So early go and eat breakfast? What about i sleep till 12 and skip breakfast altogether?

I eventually slept till 9.11 then showered and blah and i realised that i have an ICA test tmr! And i haven't even study yet. I can't even open my eyes now. I really want to sleep!!!

Yesterday

Laughed till crazy at the end of the school day. The stalker for my friend, essanne, was doing some crazy things as usual. He was standing at the end of the hallway waiting for her to finish her class. After getting out of the lab, we saw him but went straight to the toilet. By the time we came out, he was looking elsewhere and my other friend, En Nian ran for the fire escape stairs. LOL. Eventually we escaped!

So, i went to orchard with NS, Pl and ewen. Didn't actually want to buy anything but was determined not to repeat! So, i bought some clothes.

I'm being quite random here but GREY'S ANATOMY IS BACK!!!YAY!! SO IS GOSSIP GIRL!!!
I'm in tutorial now. This is seriously boring and i'm so hungry. I just finished reading michelle's blog and i realised that guy really look like or lang. YAY!!!! HAHAHA. Just finished accounts and having microecons now. I really don't think i should bring laptop here in the future. This is so distracting. I keep wanting to surf the net.

Yesterday i went to sp to look for NS and XQ. Then in the end, after travelling for like 40 mins and wasting like almost 2 dollars. We did nothing there. SP is so damn hot. It was like 3 in the afternoon and i was sweating like mad. JZ actually said that SP people are very healthy because they climb hill everyday. LOL! So, i realised that i'm not going there anytime soon because of i feel very neglected yesterday.

Think i'm going to have my break in like 5-10 mins time.YAY!
YAY! We have just had our first fortnightly gathering at BW's mac and i loved every minute of it. Its just really different from what i have in poly. The way we can laugh at each other and crack jokes knowing that we understand each other is just different. In nyp, i don't think they understand my humor so i just smile smile talk talk. I think the chemistry will build up in time or at least that's what i hope.

Well I met peiling after school today and i bought a blusher, a pair of white shorts and a belt from mango. DAMMIT. I think i'm really sick. Will stop shopping for next week! Have no money left in my wallet too. And my very-comfortable shoes gave me blisters. Like gigantic ones la. SHIT.
Finished watching TKA. Today's episde was pretty boring. It wasn't funny at all. Kind of like trying to be sympathetic but failed. I was quite disappointed but nvm!

I went to Causeway Point with Keely today and guess what? I bought something! LOL.

I think this entry is very incoherent. I'm just going to stop here
Hmms, about the gathering right, most of you all are not free on wednesday.How about we meet on a weekday? For example tuesday or monday for dinner? We can either go buddy hoagies, town? But i think town better because of our dear lim peiling who lives in BEDOK. Hais, tell me when and where you all want to meet:)

I've slept for most part of the day yesterday so i have to cancel the outing that i was supposed to have with Peiling, Guiyen and Vencia i think. In the end, no-one went because they're all not free either. I hate my CMS website. It sucks! I have to bring my latptop tomorrow and i think i'd die from the weight of it.

Oh, I think we're going to have a chalet somewhere in June. BY THE WAY, my birthday is on the 18 june lah, just in case you all forget!
HEY!

I think i've just sent a msg to all of you that's relevant saying that we'd meet up once every month? Please try to make it because we wouldn't be seeing each other very soon until chalet which we're not sure if its going to happen. Tell me when you all can't make it. Let's try to meet at fridays or weekends. Tell me when you're free!

I miss you all!
I merely survived my first poly week because of the very heavy bag that i lug around. Before you say anything, i have to say that even though my bag is heavy, it is very nice! Hmms, my school ended pretty early for today because the tutor said that thr's nothing he wanted to teach on the first lesson. Hmms, so we went to the CCA fair and i signed up for tennis. There's a three day orientation and i hope i'll like it a lot.

So far, i can only say that my poly is so-so only. Not exceptionally great but not that bad either:)

I almost forgot, I went to Bugis today and bought like one t-shirt? I was broke! Have yet to claim money from my mom. Hmms, i think i look like some auntie today. I wore polo t-shirt and shorts with my gold gladiator sandals! HAHAHA. Dammit. I sound ridiculous. As if i'm typing when i'm drunk.

My brother is sitting opposite me playing some stupid war game that his com keep having those shooting sounds. So irritating. Me thinks hot weather makes me easily annoyed. *rolls eyes!*
I'm truly speechless.

I have 4 periods of Accounting tomorrow. 2 periods of Lectures and 2 periods of tutorial. Thanks ah. And like 2 periods of Micro-econs. I haven't even started reading my text and i'm totally unfamilliar.Btw, i think the previous post i have typed is like gone. I can't see it from the URL. I don't see how poly life is supposed to slack.

Oh, i realised that I need to start wearing formal wear for one of my presentations. Yay :) am going to start buying. Am going to make my mom buy me shoes. I realised that i'm going to hate thurs and friday but love monday because it is going to be a 3 hr school day!
Today is the first official day of my poly life.

Made quite a few friends this morning by smiling non-stop. It goes like this:" Hi , what's your name?*smile*.. hmms, what school are you from? *smile*(the smiling goes on for the whole of 2 and 1/2 hours. ) I realised that i'm not a smiler and i won't be. Its too damn tiring. Its easier to have no expressions at all.

Also, the second thing i realised is that I have to spend 15 mins or more (defintely more) thinking about what am i going to wear the next day. I'm defintely going to get even more tempted to go shopping when i see people wearing things that look great but are not in my closet. I have spent the last 10 mins lying on bed thinking of what to wear tomorrow and guess what? I'm just going to throw on whatever i can find.

The first lesson that in my entire poly life is mod 0702. Hmms, its actually a computer class and i spent like 1 hour daydreaming because i had no idea what the heck the lecturer was talking about.My school day was quite short for today, it started from 8-11. 3 hours by the same boring woman teaching computer lessons. How horrible is that?

Please don't ask me if there are any pretty girls in my class because there are! Yay! I've currently spotted 2. One of them is 20 years old the other is of the same age as me . Sadly, there are no handsome ppl :( But nevermind. Me shall stalk the place where or lang is reservicing. Me do not care if me gets arrested for loitering around the army place as long as i can get to see or lang :):)
I had a very weird dream last night.

It goes like this: I was on board a luxury ship which actually has casinos and all of my friends and relatives were on the same ship. Some of my friends wanted to go to the nearby island and thus we swam there with me using the safety jacket because i can't swim. Somehow, the island is called the Singapore Island and we were at the Jurong Rd. Its totally unlike the real jurong road.

Its more like Pulau Ubin. Deserted and eerie. Then, I whipped out my phone and start to call my mother. The reception there was really good, but instead of my mother coming to save me. Koonlay came.

She was in her PJC uniform and i don't know why. She asked me how did i come to the island and i said :" Swim la." She was like :"But you cannot swim what." I replied:" There's the safety jacket leh." then she went:" Oh ya hor. "

Somehow i teleported back to when i abandoned the luxury ship. Because i was so afraid that i cannot swim and would drown out there. I held on very tightly to a stewardess or waitress there. She was so nice she actually wanted to let me hold on to her. There was slightly commotion everywhere and guess what? Instead of her holding my hand, i realised Guiyen held me. Then i was like :" Eh, how come is you?" She went:" Its always me what." Somehow, i eventually survived:):)
I went back to BBSS yesterday and met quite a lot of friends. We laughed, talked and gossip about people the whole time and i began to wonder to myself:" Will i get this kind of friendship in NYP?I think not." :(:(

So early in the afternoon, i met Nuoshi in Orchard to exchange the size of my pencil skirt and realised that the scarf i wanted from forever 21 is gone! GONE!! I was quite angry but it was quickly calmed by the appearance of this very nice belt and dress from GG5. They're very expensive so i don't think i'd get them. I want to buy a pair of heels from Charles and Keith: It has the snakeskin pattern and its quite high. I hope my mother will want to buy me that.

My uncle's who is getting married just made his father(being my grandfather) walk all the way here to give us the Xi Bing. HMPH! I think he's a big bully. How can he do this. ASSHOLE!

Oh, i still think Mr Latiff is great. Handsome as always. Somehow i think Mr jansen is looking a lot older than he should and he had gained quite a bit of weight lor. And i can't believe the length of his speech. His speeches in the past used to be quite short and straight to the point. Yet this time, its so damn long!

I LOVE BBSS!!!
I realised that i'm really very stubborn and spoilt.

I don't want to go to NYP tomorrow, its so tiring, trying to make small talk all the time. There're no familliar faces at all and i have to smile at people whom i normally won't. That's so damn irritating. I can't paste a smile on my face and tell people that :"hey, i'm happy and high ok?". I just want to be myself! The dark and miserable ME!!!! DAMMIT.

I'm only not miserable when i'm shopping.LOL.

So, i wonder what will actually happen tomorrow.
It was the most boring orientation of all time. I think its partly because of me not used to waking up so damn early.So, i went out with Peiling after that and guess what? I bought a pencil skirt, a pair of hoop earrings and a mascara. LOL.

I don't know how i'm going to handle school when i have such shopping addiction. Gawd.

My next shopping list is : Another pencil skirt, a waistbelt and the scarf i saw at forever 21 today:)
Enough is Enough.

I'm not going to continue complaining about how i'm scared of tomorrow's situation. I'm going to save the bitching to tomorrow when i get back from school.

I think something bad is going to happen tomorrow though. There're signs! When i happily ate my cone ice-cream as i walked down to the bus-stop, i realised that I had chocolate on my white blouse. :( Then I tried to clean it at raffles city and guess what? I looked like i only sweated with one arm. LOL. The second sign came when the jacket that i wanted was more expensive than expected and it didn't have my size! So, Ewen accompanied me back to Vivocity and I bought the jacket thr! I don't think its very nice the second time i see it but still, Ewen thinks its nice.

Miraculously, we went back home immediately then.

I have made the very important decision of what to wear on the first orientation day.

A plain white tee, a pair of dark old jeans from levis and my very comfortable silver flats. :) I hope i look friendly. LOL!

Well, I''ve recently heard this thing from TV. We know how Angmohs are intrigued by Chinese characters right? So this angmoh got a tattoo when he's in some angmoh country and showed off his tattoo to this chinese host. He said"Isn't this tattoo very powerful? I think chinese characters are very interesting." The host went like:"hmms, its ok." Angmoh:"What does it mean? I looks incredibly powerful to me." She said " Table". He went :" Are you sure? Is thr another meaning to it? " She replied:"Desk."

LOL. I laughed till i almost cried.
I'm counting down to the last 24 hours of life without school for me. The day after today will be NYP orientation. I'm so scared/excited i can't sleep. I'll be going to Bugis with Ewen tomorrow to watch "The Other Boleyn Girl", no-one has told me how is the movie but everytime i watch the trailer, i have goosebumps. Even though i know how the story ends, i still have the strong anticipation of watching it. I hope its as good as the book.

I have no idea what to wear tomorrow.

T-shirt and jeans? What jeans? What t-shirt? Hair down or tied? Specs or not? Ohmygod. Suddenly i wish i'm in JC, with the uniform.

I still can't sleep.

How?

I can't stop thinking of the NYP orientation and the jacket i'm getting tmr. OH, i realised that i don't have pens, correction tape, and pencil case! SHIT. I have to get the pencil case tmr then.
I'm so angry. I just written a very long post in a happy mood and suddenly its gone! The whole thing. HMPH!

Anyway, i was bitching about some girl putting on a lot of makeup in the toilet and how unfair the weather was to me and peiling. We went to Sentosa today hoping to get a tan and guess what? It rained. We managed to wait until it stopped raining but there was no sun at all. LOL. So we went to shower and head to Vivo. I think i spent quite a lot today, but whatever. Today's like the last few days of freedom left. So, i bought a belt from Topshop, a pink cap from Adiddas which i have no idea whr to wear it to(pL bought the black one), a Mango Sunglass and accessories. I saw this pink dress from River Island that looks damn cute but pl thinks its impractical. Hmms, it looks like something from Burberry, very cute. But i didn't try because i was mesmerised by this GORGEOUS jacket. Its a little bit too expensive but i've been looking for something like that for a very long time, thus me going to buy tmr.

When I told my mom about this jacket, she totally ignored me. HMPH. I quote her reply to my subtle mentionings of pl's mom getting her a jacket because Poly is cold:" You haven't even go to school and you want this and that? You can get whatever you want when you go to work!" This is so incredibly unfair! I can't believe it!!!!
Dammit. I ordered Mac again. I'm so bloated now. I think i'm fat and fat. I have no idea what i'm talking about. I saw this bag from CKJ yesterday and i want it. Its around 200+ though. But i'm still looking for big brown leather bags. Topshop has pretty nice leather bags. I saw a brown one once but i wasn't interested then. hmms. Poly is reopening soon. I'm going to have my orientation on 10th April. Shit.

Oh I happen to come across this quite scary news lately: If you do not apply sunscreen before you're 18, you'd have 10X my possibility of getting skin cancer. I think its really very scary lor. And please apply it throughout the day and night. There's this thing called UVA and UVB. UVB is more from the sun and UVA actually is all around you. The lights we use at home and blah all contain UVA , so please apply suncreen with PA++ even if its night time. Usually, we don't see PA++ in European or American products, because its japanese innovated.And the easiest place to get skin cancer is usually the ears because that's one the places that people usually neglect.
I've always thought of myself as a person who can control my feelings and not let it be shown very easily.When I heard that Yuloon is leaving NYP for NP, I can't help it but really want to cry. I'm going to be all alone at NYP, not knowing anyone. (I'm really happy for YL. I'm really sorry for the less-than ethusiatic reply i gave you when you told me you were successful in appealing)
This is not unlike the situation when I left BPPS for BBSS.

What's lucky for me was that I met Qiaoting, Gladys they all really soon. We hit it off at the first day. I was in BBSS with only Jingxiang and GuoWei from BPPS. Thank God I met Qiaoting and Gladys. Things become better and worse after that but I've had a really good start.

YL said that she received the invitation by post and I really hope that I can receive from NP too. Or else, I'm going to have to go to a totally new place and take chances. Once was enough.
I think i'm getting paranoid.

First, i got into cosmetics and i think i've spent about 400 dollars on it already in less than a year. Then, i'm into....now and i've already spent 100+ dollars! Furthermore, i think i'm damn fat. Peiling,Xinqi,Gladys,EVON, Munyee and i are going to sentosa. I don't want to stand next to EVON! She's so damn skinny and i'll look DAMN FAT!I don't want!!!!!

I'm going to wear long sleeve and jeans that day. I don't care if i'm going to die of heatstroke. If she wears her bikini, that's what i'll be wearing.
Almost always, i discover new emotions from the movie :"My Best Friend's Wedding". Everyone knows that Julia Roberts was a bitch in the movie but how many of us will actually do what she does?The story goes like this: Julia Roberts and Michael have known each other for 9 years. They've always been best friends but suddenly Michael announces that he has a girlfriend who is played by Cameron Diaz as a dimwit blonde. Julia Roberts then panicks and realises her feelings for Michael have always been there.Thus, she tries various ways to break them up before the wedding. At the end, she failed and Cameron Diaz found out what she had always tried to do(break her and Michael up). Yet they reconciliated at the end and threw a fabulous wedding while Julia Roberts moved on with her life.

Everytime i watch the film on HBO, i would secretly hope that Michael will change his mind about the wedding and marry Julia Roberts instead. What the hell is wrong with me?