I realised that i'm really very stubborn and spoilt.

I don't want to go to NYP tomorrow, its so tiring, trying to make small talk all the time. There're no familliar faces at all and i have to smile at people whom i normally won't. That's so damn irritating. I can't paste a smile on my face and tell people that :"hey, i'm happy and high ok?". I just want to be myself! The dark and miserable ME!!!! DAMMIT.

I'm only not miserable when i'm shopping.LOL.

So, i wonder what will actually happen tomorrow.