I'm going to admit this horrible thing that i actually thought in sec 3.

When koonlay and Junior first got together in sec 3, i hated Junior. He took my best friend from me, left me quite alone in the class, 3e4. I had practically only Liyan other than Koonlay. And then, KL continued hanging out with Amanda, Jy and soon they began to form one clique. Me, Alyssa and maybe Evon became closer.

But we were never as close as what i was to gladys they all. I always felt left out in the class so i hated junior even more. Let's not say that i hate him, just that i dislike him even more. The fact that he calls me "dora the explorer" doesn't help!

At the end of sec 3, i begin to believe that the two of them might actually stand a chance to be together for quite a long time since they looked really happy.I didn't mind the fact that Kl had to stay with Jr during recess just because he said that he doesn't have real friends. But actually, it was because he didn't like us. I really didn't mind. Then, i heard how Jr endured Kl's father's scoldings and how he stood up for their relationship and i sort of saw jr in a different light. I thought, maybe he could bring kl happiness for a long time. Maybe i was just jealous.

So, they continued the relationship till graduation.

One day, as i was going to lot one to watch movie with YX, i heard the news from Kl that jr broke up with her. I was seriously shocked. The way he handled the break up was just ....... (let's just say he's a jerk). It is true that i have only heard one version which is kl's side of the story. But Koonlay is not like me. She doesn't say nasty things about people. I realised that JR had made her terribly upset. I thought this was going to pass, the sadness but until now, it hadn't.

I have come to realise that even though i have gotten my best friend back at the end of the day, she has not come back complete. She has left a part of herself in that relationship, with him. She is not happy, she worries about him and has been continuously toyed by him.

It is hard for her to actually completely forget about him and i know she is trying. After seeing all these heartbreak that she has gone through, i begin to regret my initial reactions to their relationship.

Maybe, just maybe that if all of us were more supportive, it'd have make a difference.